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I'm just me.
Check out my tumblr?
Enjoy looking at the crap I post every once in a blue moon?
Talk to me if you feel like it, I generally reply.

My side blog is:

My main blog is :
  • Mood: Hurt
  • Listening to: Once Upon a Dream
  • Reading: Kurt Vonnegut
  • Watching: Star Trek: Voyager
  • Playing: ACNL
  • Eating: Nothing
  • Drinking: Nothing
It's been a while. A REALLY long while.

Australia was incredible and everything I've ever dreamed of. Held a koala, pet a rhino, went to the Australia Zoo (Steve Irwin's legacy is still going strong there and I am so happy about that). Saw my siblings TOGETHER. So yeah, some really incredible things went on...As well as like a two-week fling with my brother's roommate but let's not get into that hahaha

Anyway, I don't recall if I've mentioned it but I'm moving again (big surprise right?). This time to Denver. Everything is packed and is gonna be going into the moving pod tomorrow. I'm actually not moving until the beginning of July though, so there's that. 
My friend Silas, :iconrootface:, is gonna me moving in with me in a few months too so that's hella rad and I am so stoked to have a friend from Michigan with me. (I'm selfish mmk)
Spoilers you guys, if my friends lived elsewhere I probably would have never moved from Michigan to begin with but I was so unhappy in that state I can't even begin to describe it.

Currently I'm still in a shitty position relationship wise with my father, but whatever because I haven't confronted him about anything yet, especially since he openly laughed in my face when I told him I'd be the one laughing when I have a fat check from a publisher and am running to the bank with a 70,000 dollar check in my name, and then proceeded to tell me I'm hooked on phonics, can't spell at all, and the only way I could ever spell anything is with fucking spellcheck. 
Yeah, go fuck yourself 'father'. 
I ask you, what kind of parent get's off on mocking their kid's dream??? I will go and tell anyone else that I plan on being a published author and do you know what I get? 

"Oh wow! I'm positive you'll do it!"

"That's great! I can get a signed copy, right?"

"That's incredible, most people your age haven't done that much with their writing." [I'm over 100,000 words in my book. This is not some fucking passing thought in my head once upon a time. This is me NOW. And it has been since I was a freshman in high school almost six years ago??]

Do you know what I get from my father when I tell him that?
I get laughter. 
I get basically, in the barest form, "Your head is in the clouds, you're too fucking stupid to write a book. Pick something else you piece of shit. Go back to school or else you're a failure to me."

Sorry not sorry, if you aren't helping me pay for my goddamn education you can go fuck yourself on that 'dad'.

Obviously I am still quite pissed about that last phone call. 
I am perfectly fine with not talking to him for the better part of a year. 
I've gone several months without talking to him anyway.

The shitty thing about everything I've just written is that no matter how hard I try not to care, I still do. I know I still do even though I will deny it for as long as I can. I want to hate him more than I do.

Carrying on, because I'm tried of talking about my dad;

I am currently obsessed with CAPTAIN AMERICA AND BUCKY BARNES. 

I'm visiting Michigan for about a week at the end of October/beginning of November, mainly for my friends, and partly for YOUMACON~

I'll be going on all three days. 
:iconkungfuhime2009: will be my Bucky and I'm gonna be Steve. I am so ready for this cosplay man oh my goooood.

I will also be Dean Winchester and HOPEFULLY this particular version of him will be done by then but I DUNNO and I really love it so much though. I have yet to see someone else try to cosplay as him like this sooo????? I pray he'll end up looking hella. 

Other secret cosplay is super secret and I can't divulge much on that.

If anything fails I guess I'll just be normal Dean haha. Or like...Just Mark of Cain sort of Dean. 

Speaking of the Mark, when I'm in Colorado I plan on getting the Mark tattooed but my friend Layla has to get it with me soooo friend must visit from  Texas. Holla.

That's about all I can think of at this point.
Gonna be at Youma for three days ~weekend pass~ and I'll be with my friends. 
I need this in my life.

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Brawldrawer Featured By Owner Oct 4, 2013  Hobbyist Traditional Artist
HAPPY BIRTHDAY! :cake::iconcakeiconplz::iconpartycannonplz::iconderpylaplz::party::happybounce:
iIzAxEl-DeIdArA Featured By Owner Oct 7, 2013
Thanks! :D
Brawldrawer Featured By Owner Oct 7, 2013  Hobbyist Traditional Artist
You're welcome!
Endurakseethe Featured By Owner Apr 16, 2013  Student General Artist
I was just thinking about you the other day after I had watched the lion king 2! DECEPTION!!!...oh the good old days! I sing this around the house but nobody ever knows what I'm talking about! Oh yeah! and We were watching TV on Sunday when all of a sudden we came to this movie called The Alamo.. and we heard this guy say *when ya can't run, you walk, and when you can't walk, you crawl!* and I Jumped up and said *and when ya can't crawl you find someone to carry you!* needless to say it made me very happy!
iIzAxEl-DeIdArA Featured By Owner Apr 17, 2013
Lol! XD
"When you can't run, you crawl. And when you can't crawl you find someone to carry you!"
God I love Firefly.

I should make some Firefly art :D New stuff because dear lord, have you seen my anime phase? lol Ew. That's the best way to describe that. Like seriously, never go into the depths of my DA. EW. EW. Ew.

Endurakseethe Featured By Owner Apr 17, 2013  Student General Artist
HAHA! anime will get into some pretty darn scary crap! I will give them that!
Endurakseethe Featured By Owner Apr 9, 2013  Student General Artist
thanks for the FAVES!
iIzAxEl-DeIdArA Featured By Owner Apr 10, 2013
Of course buttmunch <3
Endurakseethe Featured By Owner Apr 10, 2013  Student General Artist
*facepalm* never fail to make me laugh!
NailoSyanodel Featured By Owner Mar 27, 2013  Student Artisan Crafter
I really appreciate! :)
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